#497 On Ascending

I scratched my hands today
To see if I still bleed
Tried to wash it all away
This deeply-seated need

To love and so be loved
But you cannot reveal
The pain of all these years
You can never heal

What have I become
Your broken child
All I have to taste is
Your dark, tainted bile

And you could never have
My empire of love
I will leave you here, as
I ascend above.

(with apologies to Trent Reznor and Johnny Cash)

#495 Tentang Pengumuman dan Percaturan

Pengumuman tentang pengumuman
Bagai kilau bayang yang mewayang
Pertuturan demi pertuturan
Menyalut ikan basi dalam sampul loyang

Demi mencuri sesuap ucapan syukur
Dari sang marhaen yang dipandang kufur
Enggan akur pada kehebatan
Sang penguasa yang bermahkotarotan

Percaturan demi percaturan
Dua langkah maju kehadapan
Lima langkah kau bungkam terhumban.

#493 Tentang Derhaka

Kita diajar
Jangan pernah derhaka
Pada kedua ibu bapa
Patuh dan dengar
Taat dan sabar
Jangan pernah celupar
Jangan pernah mencabar

Jadi bagaimana pula
Kalau ibu bapa yang derhaka
Pada Tuhan dan keluarga?
Abai anak isteri
Lalai tiada peduli?

Kalau anak derhaka digelar Tanggang
Kalau bapa derhaka, siapa malang?

#492 On My Private Mountain

This here is 
My own private mountain to climb
And no one else can
See the steep slopes ahead
The twists and turns that await

This here is
My own quiet struggle to fight
Against the tide
Against the herd
Against the voices in my own head
And no one else can
Hear the self-doubt
The gnawing sense of futility

This here is
My life
And no one else can
Live it for me.

#490 On Time that Strips Us Bare

It feels millennia since I’ve walked those halls 
The uni years of youthful politics
As if that young man was just someone else
In subtle ways, we’re prey to Time’s false tricks
How did that young man come to be this old?
Did Time strip off the masks that kept us bold?